Emotional Just Like a Kid

please forgive me for the things I'll do
promise me you'll still follow through
on loving me, even if it's now as a friend
cause I miss you like hell and it's been a month since
I turned 18 in a hospital
spent the whole day crying
during phone time in a hospital
I almost died the night before
by my own hand, and i almost did two times before

I told you the truth
I was in love with you
I told you the truth
I was in love with you

Sometimes I still dream about it
The nights we all went driving, ranting bout the unimportant
got wasted on the couch, we were making out
you said you didn't care that i was moving south
i guess none of that matters, well, it doesn't anymore
Now I'm kissing strangers on the bathroom floor
you're probably telling stories in character
you're probably making jokes, filling rooms with laughter

I told you the truth
I was in love with you
I told you the truth
I was in love with you

And if you're wondering how I'm doing
I'm doing fine
And I know that you're not thinking of me,
But you're the only thing on my mind.
is it selfish to hope that you're home crying
Cause I've been reduced to nothing
but you're free as a bird, you're out flying
so full of apathy, i might as well be dying

i haven't aged between 14 and 18
i'm emotional just like a kid
i'm a cliche coming-of-age sob scene
i'm emotional just like a kid