Ex's House Party

I can see from the corner you're watching if I'm watching too
Here again and when we're out I
tell them I'm just friends now with you
Talk about what's old and new and dance around what's in between
Dirty walls and letting go and getting
close again and what that really means
I can see from the landing you've got the affection you crave
Would still be standing right here
with a drink she made me even if I'd stayed
Slip outside to get a ride without saying goodbye
Turn around to see if you'd stop me
even though it'd hurt more if you tried

I'm stuck in the hallway, afraid to close the door
You used to be so far away but not so much anymore
And I built this up around me and I can't stop looking at the floor
It's hard to look you in the eye and know
that this will never be more than what it is now

Street lights are making lines down the empty road from the rain
I'll wait inside pretend to look at the faces in your frames
Kitchen lights behind my back are showing everything on the glass
Your arm's around her shoulder and I'm
trying to make sense on how I feel about the past

I'm stuck in the hallway
Afraid to close the door
You used to be so far away but not so much anymore
And I built this up around me and I can't stop looking at the floor
It's hard to look you in the eye and know that
this was never really more than what it is now