Trauma

I wish someone would have told me
"You'll be okay
Go on your way
I know this won't make sense right away
But one day
One day you'll understand what I mean"

When I couldn't sleep, barely eat
With all these visions all around me
I wish someone would have found me
In the dark
Through the pride, to keep me from drowning
With these memories in my heart

Feeling guilt-ridden, everything seems so hideous
Nightmares slowly crawling in insidious

I said "Escape from it"
I heard "you'll never run far enough"
I kept walking
"Maybe one day you'll have gone far enough"

I guess it was me, I never shed tears the same
There's a monster within taking my fears away
And through the years slowly, a cloud of doubt overhead
I'm growing older, all I know to cope is how to forget

I can't remember, can't recall
Too prideful to see it all
I keep on climbing like a fiend
Fuck it, never mind the fall

There's no escape from it
Face it or lose it all
I choose to fall
I can't keep going if it's just to forget it
Believe in fate, believe in nothing
Accept it or curse it all
I'll stop walking
And let my demons crawl...
Just far enough