Only God Knows

So much weight on me sometimes I feel like crashing out
Overdosing on this pain, these drugs ain't working out
Love I had for niggas changed, no one stuck around
I remember my first stripe, I gotta couple now
I remember gambling on my life, I had to double down
We was wipin niggas noses, had to snuff em down
Lived wit that karma, how it came around
Had to hustle til the sun go down
Been dead broke, I wanted mo
All the people kicked me down, I wanted smoke
I lost so much love and hope
Swear that you don't know the feeling when you dealing wit so much
It feel like every breath, you just more on your own
Swear it turned me cold
Some my day one niggas folded
Went against the code
Neva switched up on the bros
I was in the sandbox, wit niggas that done did me wrong
I done gave my last out, that damn near put me in a hole

I done did so much, that only God knows
I done did so much, that only God knows
I be off the pressure baby, God knows
I be toting weapons baby, God knows

Walk wit faith, I keep my eyes closed
Drag my name all thru the dirt, I took the high road
Dese problems, keep on weighing down and they just pile on
Devil keep tryna block blessings, I just smiled on
So many ways to go
Gotta watch the ones that's close
Niggas play like they the homie, but can't wait to pick you off
Off no sleep, I'm nodding off
Niggas tried to double cross
How the fuck you say you family, and I caught you runnin off
Now I can't trust nobody
If I seen em, I walk past em like they nobody
Kept my eyes up on the road, I been road runnin
Got nothing to prove to niggas, I don't owe nothin
They too broke to show sumn

I done did so much, that only God knows
I done did so much, that only God knows
I be off the pressure baby, God knows
I be toting weapons baby, God knows
I done did so much, that only God knows
I done did so much, that only God knows
I be off the pressure baby, God knows
I be toting weapons baby, God knows