Portrait

I fail to comprehend the world that surrounds me
Pistols poppin' off all over cash and rap beef
Fightin' over flows, and numbers that all the crowds see
Then ignore the impact, and everything the child sees
Flexin' all the gold, you no Egyptian goddess
Shinin' with the diamonds like Rihanna in a comet
Stars all in your roof, the whip is rollin' hella cosmic
But you'll be driven crazy if you're shinin' 'till you're blinded
No more violence, I'm tired of sayin' "I'm tryin"
The sky has been subsided by the lead that's flyin' high and
You try to justify it, there's no hidin' actin' childish
Slide aside your pride and let your eyes accept the guidance
If the peace is truly worth it, drop your piece, it isn't worth it
'Fore we receive the verdict, we should really keep it urgent
To come together, and finally unite as one
Put aside the differences, escape what life's become (yeah)

You see this world is just a giant demolition derby
Bound to crash and burn all for some motherfucking money
Rewind that line or don't, I don't mind cause surely
History repeats itself in time cause nobody's learning
See people like you concern me because my vision is blurry
Have people reading shit for me but even I can see these people hurting
Begging and starving, but you're too focused on watches
To stop and see that you lost and packaged up in a box with
Every other new artist, man the shit makes me nauseous
I see your minds on the carton 'cause motherfucker you lost it
But nowadays, shit, I guess it's cool to be heartless
Cool to be a piece of shit cause they gon' listen regardless
Yeah, I'm guilty of it too, consider this my catharsis
I ain't fucking with it man, this world is driven by darkness
Heading down the wrong way, switchin lanes got me carsick
So stop and listen, if not to me, then your conscience

Shit's crazy, man
The world's now more divided than we've ever been
We just need to come together and realize that we're all one
We're all human

It feels like the internet's a curse and a blessing
'Cause your friends are worldwide, you just search and connect it
But make one wrong move and you servin' a sentence
Piss the wrong person off and you're reduced to a menace
How can I try when obstacles contrived
By my enemies are stackin' up sky high?
I fight their vile lies to fly with bright shine
And cry if I dive in five minutes time
Tell me, when I die, will I be recognized?
Or am I set aside except to criticize?
If I let my heart rise, and speak in due time
Will you finally realize, or still be too shy?
If life was picture perfect, then I just got catfished
Went to paint a self portrait, in hopes of retractin'
Any pain that was haunting me back in the past tense
But all it did was show me that I need more practice, yeah

You know, I think the biggest thing that bothers me
Is my own inability to be...
...to be myself
I wanna be accepted by others
But I feel like I have to do trendy things
And wear certain things to fit in
And it bleeds over into my personality
To the point that I'm forced to question
"Who is the real me?"