The Cycle

Need to stabilize, need to get it back
Gotta stay alive, getting back on track
Living in the lie, hiding from my downfall
Is just exhausting and
I am just a cliche
Of genetics and bad decisions
Fueling delusions

There's never distance
Between you and your demise
Time does not provide protection
Pain does not abide or sympathize
Paranoia in the darkest times
Perpetuate the sickness you thought you left behind

Here comes the rain again cause I
I couldn't fix myself, and no one else can help
Sinking in
And bleeding out
It's really no surprise, I'm just a waste of time

And I'm not good enough to break this cycle
Never good enough
To break away

Leave me alone
Me and my hollow bones

What is the difference
Between me and my disguise
Idealize all my intentions
That are victimized by effortless reprise
And I can't deny that I am
Holding onto something
That's dead and gone

Here comes the rain again cause I
I couldn't fix myself, and no one else can help
Sinking in
And bleeding out
It's really no surprise
I'm just a waste of time

Crawling out of crisis mode
Grasping for a better life
I need to gain back my control
Please let it work this time
Progress into regression yet again
I feel something is broken in my head

Don't let it be my downfall

Don't let it be my downfall
Your flaws make you hate yourself
And you're left here with doubt
Just find an end to take the easy way out

Side effects and highlines
When my mind is so wrong
Take away the guidelines
When it's taking too long

I've never felt so unsafe alone
This toxic state of mind is not my home

I can't calm down
I can't go back
Now I'm just a collection of my collective self destruction
I'm everything I used to fear
I have become my downfall