sunflower

Echoed your smile
And how you held your head high
Now I don't ask for help, of course
Strong girls don't cry
We don't need no advice
And all of my fears are weaknesses, right?

Never told you I was still awake
When you said good night too late

Instead I just cried on my own
Hoping tears wash off those growing pains
So one day you can say
You've raised a happy child
And it won't be a lie

Loving too fast
Never could make it last
Stability is an art form to me
I want to be warm
Attracted to order and calm
But what I need I offer instead

Seeking home in other people's life
To find some rest at night

Instead of just crying on my own
After years and all those growing pains
But one day I will say
I've raised a happy child
And it won't be a lie

(Ah)
I was trying to survive but subconsciously
I am still searching for something
That makes me feel lost again
At least it's familiar
(Ah)
I was trying to survive but subconsciously
I am still searching for someone
Who treats me with disrespect
At least it's familiar