The Hotel

And in the morning
We'll get pancakes and coffee
Your heart had promised me
But your gut had other plans

And it was pouring
Double sided on the window pane
As I watched
You start your car and go

That note
That you left for me
Haunts me when I go to sleep
Cause I know I could wake up
And you're not there
And I'll throw myself off a balcony
To watch you run to catch me
But I bleed out on the ground
And watch you stare

I'm shattered on the hotel floor
I don't know anymore
Who do I believe in
Standing in the corridor
The paper sign on the door
Means more to you than me and
Now I wonder if you had this all planned out
Building up my trust like a paper house
You light the flame
I wilt away
But I still wait for you just in case

And in the lobby
I had to check out using your name
"Did you enjoy your stay"
I didn't have the heart to tell her no
And the whole scene
Of morning drinks and limousines
And consistency
Really brought the rain
To my shit parade

I hold
Onto our love affair
I know its not remotely fair
That you
Can have the upper hand in how this ends
So I'll throw myself off a balcony
To hope you run to catch me
But I'll bleed out on the ground
Cause you're not there

I'm shattered on the hotel floor
I don't know anymore
Who do I believe in
Standing in the corridor
The paper sign on the door
Means more to you than me and
Now I wonder if you had this all planned out
Building up my trust like a paper house
You light the flame
I wilt away
But I still wait for you just in case
That you stay
Stay

And I would've kept your secret
To the grave
And fought barehanded to this day
And lied and killed and worshipped in your name
But fuck the way you had me
Hanging on that single word
To throw it all away for her
And leave me in your desecrating hurt
And I'll say it first
I thought this was different
You and me, we were the next
Big thing
But you let everything
Fall through the fucking cracks
And now I'm stacked
Against the odds
And the fate of it all
It's all your call
What's your call?

I'm shattered on the hotel floor
I don't know anymore
Who do I believe in
Standing in the corridor
The paper sign on the door
Means more to you than me and
Now I wonder if you had this all planned out
Building up my trust like a paper house
You light the flame
I wilt away

You left me on the hotel floor
I don't know anymore
If you're someone I believe in
Walking down the corridor
The paper sign on the door
An act of apathetic treason
Don't you ever feel like you are drowning out
All those judging stares
Come to knock you down
You run away I'm not okay
But you have a cover-up just in case
I light the flame,
But we're not the same
'Cause I'd still wait for you just in case