Had To Tell Em

My upbringing was a lil different
Papa was there early age then he moved different
Had him catch a crazy murder charge
Aiming for a thug but he shot somebody mom
Seen my momma red eyed tryna keep it in
And my papa fake a smile tryna keep it G
My big Bro couldn't contain the misery
Tears running down the floor from little me
Momma had no grind so we had to ditch the crib
Back to the hood of my origin with no salary
You know the talk of the town they thought they was the shit
Look at their sergeant paps now getting caged and shit
Mathew Fox's new fan I was feeling lost
Stevie Wonder eye vision couldn't see the plot
You know a young nigga tantrum I was blaming God
He took the bread winner and never left some entry forms

I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
My Pain Cuts Deep Even Though It Never Shows
I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
My Pain Cuts Deep Even Though It Never Shows

Sometimes I hit the vodka to be straight
I don't wanna hit the past it's already late
But every time I close my eyes I'm on elm street
That's why I only ever smile when the liquor hits
They wasn't raised how I was raised so they sharing shit
Getting problems off they chest till the stress is killed
Sometimes I wanna try the same ish but that ain't me
I was taught to smile even when the titanic sinks
The funny guy is suicidal tonight
But the timing ain't right gotta get my money right
And get my family straight
And once they're rich then the plan is straight
Painkillers or a rope then my body's laid
They don't get it alcohol is what kept me alive
Them jail trips to see my paps are what kept me alive
But now I'm grown I realize he gave us heavy smiles
Couldn't show his sadness so our happiness could stay alive

I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
My Pain Cuts Deep Even Though It Never Shows
I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
My Pain Cuts Deep Even Though It Never Shows

Somebody said share your story till you let it go
Or keep the same energy and watch your spirit go
This cage you say they trapped you in is your own fault
Sharing is caring analyze it you gon thank me bro
Gotta prepare to push harder like your water broke
Your paps is outta jail now so you know there's hope
To make it up for every single minute you done lost
Show him you love him fore one of you niggas lose your soul

He's prolly right that nigga ain't never did me wrong
Except his scuffles with my mama that's his only fault
That one night he pulled the nine I was left cold
Already envisioned the whole family head blown
Do I believe in a parallel universe
Like if he quit alcohol he'd be a better man
Man I don't know I'll just have to guess
And I 'ma knock on his door when I finish this verse

I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
My Pain Cuts Deep Even Though It Never Shows
I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
I Had To Tell Em They Ain't Even Know
My Pain Cuts Deep Even Though It Never Shows