Feed

I was dead then woke up
From my first breath had enough
Then I wasted time filling my mind with all sorts of stuff
First only needed to feed
Next phase succeeded to read
I used to get out of the shower and just have a nosebleed
I used to lay on the floor
Cried through spasms in my back
I used to drink so much I can't believe I am still in tact
I used to wish I was dead
I didn't want to wake up
I lost my sister instead
On that day I woke up

I don't really know when I lost my way
Trying to let go and welcome change
If I feel you're close you can't be gone
Feel like our reunion won't take long

I wish I was asleep
I wish this all was a dream
Keep waking up to endless horrors but I can't even scream
Can't help but feel confined
Been years now stuck inside
Whatever spirit used to be with me has up and died
I took it out to the woods
Buried it deep in the dirt
My ambitions all but vanished, didn't even hurt
I have to wonder what's left
Can't wait to welcome what's next
I'm not hoping for much - life puts my ego in check

I don't really know when I found my way
Trying to let go and welcome change
If I feel you're close you can't be gone
Feel like our reunion won't be long

It won't take long
Soon everything will go
Then it's gone
Everything will go
All gone
Each thing I think I know
Gone

Take each piece of my life
And then I'm gonna get it back
Because I'm gonna keep trying again