Mood Shift

Think I just need a mood shift
Cuz lately I ain't wanna do a goddamn thing and I
Caught a bad case of the I don't give a fucks
In a rut held up, stuck yelled up
It's hot as hell in this hellhole boss
Tryna get a grip with the Velcro off
I ain't a kid no more
It's a rip, no top
No cap, no shit
Fucking yeah, it's obvious you put it like that

I need a mood shift
Cuz lately I ain't wanna do shit
And the way she treating me is ruthless
Holed up in my room just staring at the ceiling and wishing for Wellbutrin
I mean I ain't doing well though
Mighta spent eight hours just bouncing back and forth from my laptop to my cell phone
Might've done it to myself though

Drowning under the weight of my own mental blocks
Tryna vomit up the words to describe my stomach in knots
Tied myself in knots trying to be something I'm not
Love was cut into ribbons they asked for a paper hearts
Should've paper mache it or Kintsugi to start
I got a lot on my plate, I got a lot on my heart
I got a lot left to say, but I go ghost when i'm hurt
Cuz you know it's gold in my heart if I can open it first

I need a mood shift
Cuz lately I ain't wanna do shit
And the way she treating me is ruthless
Holed up in my room just staring at the ceiling and wishing for Wellbutrin
I mean I ain't doing well though
Mighta spent eight hours just bouncing back and forth from my laptop to my cell phone
Might've done it to myself though

Cut all the noise
Lemme tell you this
Know your mood'll shift
Cuz everything ends
Telling you the truth
I cannot predict
The way the mood moves
But I hope I get there

I think back to when I first wrote "Smile"
Depressed as hell; had been awhile
As winter turned into spring
Driving and thinking it's so easy to get burnt out
And then fall into the habit of being burnt out
Might be the hardest part of being hurt how you have to work to unlearn the patterns of being hurt
The grooves you fall into
Moods need a shift
This should be a song about overcoming step-by-step or some shit
And I wish it was, but it's not
Just a story of how I felt sad and then one day I felt better
Can't even give you a reason
Except to say that you never know how far away you are from seeing a

Mood shift
Cuz I started seeing the blues less
Everything was less gloomy
For the first time in ages I hit the right switch and things started moving
I'm talking like a u-haul
So even if it's rented
I'm still feeling better
Imma make it mine for too long
Maybe I just need a mood rearrangement

As the grooves keep changing
Tryna keep a cool patience
Cuz some days I'm really great
And other days I'm retrograding
But I reckon that I'll make it though
I mean I did this shit once
I can do the shit again so
Might have to force my face to grin
Just to practice skills I ain't mastered in a minute
On how to mood shift, ooh it gets transmitted
If you let it then I guess
I'm just tryin' to say I hope your mood shifts too
That's all