Stranger i Call "Me"

This stranger that I call me
Is wearing my soul down
This stranger that I call me, anxiety
But my brain just can't slow down

I'm not going out right now no no
Going through a lot right now oh oh

And everything won't be okay
Don't wanna fight through another day

All the secrets I keep
To appease your belief
That I'm safe as my soul decays

Another shit storm is underway
This typhoons become a hurricane

It's torn through me entirely
I can see that a cyclone is on its way

I see no out and I'm done searching
For the solution that'll make me perfect

Tired destitute and I feel worthless
Shattered as I'm working through
Is it really worth it

Accustomed, I sense the coming pain
I feel it numbing and it starts to fade

It's a wonder to me how the fuck I'm living
When I die every fucking day
And all this

Fear (Fear it) it (Tries) tries to
(To haunt) haunt me

My (My heart) heart (It feels) it
Feels too (Too heavy) heavy

Too numb to feel the wind
Don't ever see how this will end

This stranger that I call me
Is weighing my soul down

Wish I had some time to breathe
Anxiety, waves at me, just as I drown

You speak unequivocally
Ambitions they melt now

This stranger that I call me
Anxiety, but my brain just won't slow down

Pain (Pain) it lies (It lies), and
Hides (Hides), behind

My rage, (Rage) as cries
Of mine, subside

Been slayed, though still it stays
As feelings slip and fade away
They fade away

I don't wanna talk right now, nope
I don't wanna visit
I don't wanna sit and listen

I don't need a fucking pill
Or nother reason why I'm sick
Like is this it, wish that it
Was a zit, I could pop

When I am not responsive
Or over the top

Cause I'm gonna fucking snap
No I'm not overreacting

My words I don't redact em
My way of speaking's tactical

Practically you enact systems
That unpackaged the very fabric

Of what your brain cannot manage
Your trauma's the damage
Bleeds into your actions

And now everyone around you is just acting
No rhyme or reason just poisonous atoms

Faith cancelled out by the pain you can't handle
Wondering if this how
You're dismantled

Your sanity slipping
Your mind's being handled

And all that you hear is
Your brain being scrambled

This apathy's taken you
Move if you can but
Anxiety's grip, makes you
Think that you can't

As your self loathing thoughts
Begging forcing you out

I don't know why you try
When you'll fuck up no doubt

Foolishness fuels as you're killing yourself
But despite all this madness
And pain being dealt

You reside in the sadness
And calm of yourself

And the sickness sets in
As you'll go back around

With this stranger you know
Who inhabited self

This stranger that I call me
Is weighing my soul down

Wish I had some time to breathe
Anxiety, waves at me, just as I drown

You speak unequivocally
Ambitions they melt now

This stranger that I call me
Anxiety, but my brain just won't slow down