golden years

I can never get some rest
Oh-oh, oh
Staring at my ceiling
Thinking 'bout the weight that's on my chest
I'm always worried 'bout what's next
I think I forgot
How to live in present tense (present tense)

Yeah, I'm supposed to be in the prime of my life
But all I can see are the demons I fight
Try to believe that there's a silver lining
I can't find it, I don't wanna be

Spending all my golden years
Climbing all the way to the top
So how the hell'd I wind up here
Tryna be somebody I'm not
I used to be a lot less gated
Now I'm lost and all frustrated
Trading happiness for tears
And all my golden years

I could be a mile ahead by now
(Somewhere better)
But I'm burning all my daylight wondering how
I can get there

I know I shouldn't count all of my days under the sun
But I don't wanna think and then I wake up and it's gone
I never really got to be the person that I wanna be
Oh, oh

I'm supposed to feel like I'm living it right
Is it all in my head
Am I wasting my time
Try to believe that there's a silver lining
I can't find it, I don't wanna be

Spending all my golden years
Climbing all the way to the top
So how the hell'd I wind up here
Tryna be somebody I'm not
I used to be a lot less gated
Now I'm lost and all frustrated
Trading happiness for tears
And all my golden years

(Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)
And all my golden years
(Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)
I don't wanna be

Spending all my golden years
Climbing all the way to the top
So how the hell'd I wind up here
Tryna be somebody I'm not
I used to be a lot less gated
Now I'm lost and all frustrated
Trading happiness for tears
And all my golden years