Controlled by Those Who Wants Me Sick

I've been put on the spot since I was a kid
I thought it passes over time, it never actually did
Ye, I like try to change although I do admit
There is a pleasure in pain, a masochistic conflict
Love lust, controlled by those who wants me sick
Thanks to chemical response my feelings=mixed
Trying to restore a balance with my faith
The urge is dragging me down
Deeper until l'll get insane

I've been going down and I might drag you with me
Broken, concerned, on my own
I'd rather be damned and left here all undone

Take me, face me and finally break me
Don't make me live a life in someones concept
Conscience, forced to fucking beg for mercy
Spare me and let feel a thing

I never wanted this
I never really understood any of this shit
Take me to the edge
It is where I'm supposed to be

Take me
I never wanted this
Leave me
In this pathetic mess
Broken
I remain silent
Feel me
That's what I cannot do

Take me
I never wanted this
Leave me
In this pathetic mess
Broken
I remain silent
Feel me
I promise I want to

I've been manipulated
My standards of beauty were always determinated
It's a fucking joke, that we both
Judge them all by the looks, prove me wrong

I'm filled with lies my skin's like a coat
One add reminds me what is love
False marketing turned my senses to shit
Plug it in, loose yourself, can't quit

I've been lured by sex, but I'm the one that's fucked
My head has been raped in all sensitive spots

I never wanted this
I never really understood any of this shit
Take me to the edge
It is where I'm supposed to be
Tear me out, turn me on

Take me
I never wanted this
Leave me
In this pathetic mess
Broken
I remain silent
Feel me
That's what I cannot do

Take me to the edge, I'm dying
Inside in this pathetic mess
Broken I remain in silence
Can't feel, cause I'm fucking stressed

I am insane
Leave me
Don't keep it waitn'
I've been going down and I might drag you with me