Silent Cry In Gotham

I can't sit around and let this ting happen
I used to tell everyone I've healed but them times I hadn't
All those thoughts I gathered
When I was in the courtroom by myself and I felt so challenged

All the times I've had the right words and went and stammered
The times I had the right idea but there was no rhyming pattern
All the times they asked for a ring, and told me to planet
Damn there would of been more than one Saturn

Investments or ACs
So that's slow money or fast ps
And I couldn't find my feet
My mum telling me to top up the electricity
I magically pulled something from my sleeve
I was in so deep
And my patience got shorter
Then something clicked in me told me to trust my author
My God set peace when I was backed in the corner
And these trials and tribulations just left me with trauma

So that's pain into purpose
I think about my future, I start to get nervous
Like would I get murdered
And at my funeral they say I was next up & my talent was certain
Rapping away burdens
And leave the mic burning

Why do they only love you when you pass
I wanted to link Kieya
But laziness got me stuck in my yard
And now I can't
We had different challenges who's gonna get the first car
Then you finally got your car
Then you gave me a lecture like cuz you need to get your car
Then I finally got my car
Then you said well done you finally got your car
No one told me grieving would be this hard
God please lift my heavy heart

I got anxiety so I can't breathe great
Affirmations saying Kumar you're strong and brave
Sick and tired I ain't tryna die here like Cisse
It's only temporary KS is gonna be a worldwide name
And who saves the hero at the end of the day
I'm at the top of a rooftop on a dark night and I feel like Bruce Wayne
A couple suicide thoughts came
But I can't lose my purpose just because of my pain

And I'm tryna get closer to God so everyday I pray
Cos if I don't repent before I go to the grave
I'll be burning in
Nah I don't even wanna say
Cos the thought of the place makes me shiver and shake

I gotta keep my head in the scriptures
The ends become sinister
Questions I wanna ask now I feel like Riddler
Ocean eyes from silent cries
I hate being an overthinker
My cousin visited me in my dream now I see how much I miss ya

I'll lock myself in room for this role like Heath Ledger
Prayers in his presence makes everything feel better
I thought this pain was gonna last forever
All this pain like Bane
But God saved me like Kepa

Brothers Keeper
All these scars I wonder if I'm still a bleeder
I talk to God so much I look at my mic like do I need ya
But for voiceless I'm a speaker
Take my advice
For the Wool I'm a leader
The boroughs green but over this side the grass is greener
You only cherish life when you become a griever
And you cherish time when you realise it's either
Dwell in your feelings or give it all to the healer

I got a lot to learn cuz
I'm still learning
I send my prayers first thing
Cos as long as I'm breathing I got purpose
I think about my future and I start to get nervous
Then I read what the daily word is
His promises are certain
Taking notes from this sermon
Cos these breathing methods wasn't working
Dodging the serpents
Cos if I get bit like Adam in this Eve I'll be in that place burning