Dear Nia..

See if some shit I had to say like
Know what I mean
I'll say this shit just like this right here
Know what I mean

Indeed

See This my first in this life living without seeing you in it
Excuse me if I'm tripping, it's a lot of shit I'm not getting
Took my heart out of my skin aint bother to break or dent it
Now I'm living for another life and I won't die til I'm finished

Probably popped off a few pills
I done had me a few drinks and smoke heavy on the weed too
N you only pop the pills for the pain
Cause you know what they be sayin
It aint really much that weed do
I need you

See I aint never had to go a day without you it's been a bitch ta get used to it
I still recall the first day without you. I still aint really got immune to it
To me girl you'll never die, you remain alive and I'm true to it
Now I'm asking the next man w the same hand "how you do it?"

No lie I just wanna hold you close
I know we got deep but im still in need. I feel I wanna know you more
I Really cant believe I had to watch you leave before I got to watch you grow
I'd give my life to get yours back but shit I know you know

So now my feelings got me feeling like I owe you some more life
Sis I know you fly but I'm gon take you on some more flights
Since you with me I dont gotta say what it was like
It's well deserved we lived one hell of a rough life

N now I wanna put your name on every panel I see
Can't get your voice out of my head, and it's obnoxious when I sleep
Thinking one day you'll b home we still tryna keep your shit neat
And I'm well aware that you watching I still share with you what I peep

I know your loyalty unmatched just like it was then
And a bitch try it you got my back just like you would then
Look at all this pain that you put mama and the kids in
But I'm just talking... you know, all that shit we did then

It was just so much shit we shared you couldn't tell us each apart
But if it's one nigga it's all three, you the first one to go off
N I still see you on my IG hollering "Damn Sus You Raw"
But it only happen in them fucking dreams so I'm pissed when I wake up

See This my first in this life living without seeing you in it
Excuse me if I'm tripping, it's a lot of shit I'm not getting
Took my heart out of my skin aint bother to break or dent it
Now I'm living for another life and I won't die til I'm finished

Probably popped off a few pills
I done had me a few drinks and smoke heavy on the weed too
N you only pop the pills for the pain
Cause you know what they be sayin
It aint really much that weed do
I need you
More than ever now