Trying

I never liked to dance
In front of anybody
Without substantial substance
I never trust my body

I never fucked with chance
It's my greatest folly
Without substantial substance
I never trust anybody

But this last year's demolished my fears
Tearing down walls I've built up for years
It all feels more open now
More exposed, more sincere

Why do you think I'm lying
When I tell you I'm trying
I'm better than I've been
I'm even taking my meds again

Why do you think I'm lying
When I tell you I'm trying
I'm better than I've been
I'm drinking wine instead of gin

Why do you think I'm lying
when I tell you I'm trying
I'm better than I've been
I won't let my anxiety win

I never liked to dance
But I've never taken molly
I've never liked to wear
Clothes that disclose my body

I've never fucked with chance
Always inverted at parties
without substantial substance
Now I want to dive into a pool of bodies
But it's like you want back me where I was
In your arms, scared of losing your love
It all feels so broken now
So controlled, so insincere

Why do you think I'm lying
When I tell you I'm trying
I'm better than I've been
I'm even taking my meds again

Why do you think I'm lying
When I tell you I'm trying
I'm better than I've been
I won't spiral about the end



Credits
Writer(s): Kelen Mahan
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