Childhood's Gone for Good

Clock hits three, bell rings
HAGS exchanged, pack my things
It's hard to believe elementary's all behind be
Who knows what things the future's gonna bring

But one thing's for sure
Now my childhood's gone for good

In middle school, no longer have a curfew
I stay up too late cuz there's nothing to do
Make atheist friends cuz my parents told me not to
Loneliness looms but homework's always due

Everything I've been through
Now I know my childhood's gone for good

Graduation day, don't know most of my class
Didn't know four years could pass me fast
I never went to parties, never had my first kiss
So many core memories that I have missed

You can't have regrets when you're just a kid
I guess this means my childhood's gone for good

A college kid, I'm fighting with my head
Taking prozac before bed, smoking weed when I can
I'm starting to think instead it might be better being dead
Than working just for pay til my heart gives way

I used to be so much like my dad
But I've changed now because my childhood's gone for good

I'll be twenty in just six days
Keep thinking about money and a future family
But all I want to do is make friends and sing
I'm not ready yet to hide away my dreams

But it's silly, cuz you can't be twenty
Without leaving your childhood behind for good

My pup is getting up there in the years
Her muzzles grey, and she's deaf in both ears
When I hold her close, I can't hold back my tears
Because I know her date's getting near

And when she gets too tired to keep living here
I know with her my childhood will be gone for good