Everything You Wish You Had

If I'm being honest
You still sweep like a landslide
I'm comparing new lovers
To your embrace and punchlines
It's the little things, our racing feet, and my wine stained tee
It's the cleaners I have never tried
To keep that memory close to me

If I'm feeling reckless
I'll find grounds to call you
Make up a reason of why you're the one to talk to
Come up with, then bask in, any plot I dream
That follows and borrows all your favorite themes

I want to know but I don't want to ask
If you got your hands on time, would you turn it back?
And do you see me in
Everything you wish you had?

I haven't been open
Because I know you're happier
Since I left your lips cold
You've found someone better
I bet they throw large parades that call out your name
And when they say that they will stay
They really stay

I want to know but I don't want to ask
If you got your hands on time, would you turn it back?
And do you see me in
Everything you wish you had?

It's not the tablecloth setting
It's not them picking up the tab
It's not the stare that lingers longer
It's not the way they grab my hand
It's not the lighting in their kitchen
It's not the phrases they don't say
It's not the shirt that they're wearing
It's not the pictures that they hang

It's not the twenty minute drive
That feels oh so never ending
It's not the jokes that don't land
It's not the laughs that I'm faking
It's not my heart that I've bordered up
So that they can't get through
It's just not you

I want to know but I don't want to ask
If you got your hands on time, would you turn it back?
And I gave you up but I can't tell you why
And since I walked away, how dare I think to come back?
Just know I see you in
Everything I wish I had