Perfect

To be honest I'm fucked up
Know they wanted me perfect
I'm getting fucked up on purpose
Feel like I fucked up my purpose
Fuck it, I probably deserve it
I still put in work cause I know that it's worth it
I make a fake nigga nervous
I put my truth in these verses
Me against me is my versus

My family been trying to beat addiction for years
Growing up, mama made me fear it
Telling me the stories bout her father
You done birthed another alcoholic
We the ones 'posed to be breaking the curse
She like baby please don't end up in a hearse
I had to stop her like look ma I promise
Deep down inside knew I couldn't be honest

Man stop playing, roll something up
You know I'm not giving it up
If I was gone do that
I would've been done it already
I'm down on my luck
Nigga, I'm down on my knees
Praying to God with a blunt in my hand
And some drink in my cup
I just confronted these niggas
Outside my apartment
I'm solo and don't give a fuck
Nigga

I was really stuck like quicksand
I was digging drugs out the trash can
I was mixing
Shhh
With the Ativan
I was losing balance like I can't stand
Thought I was playing til I switched up on the game plan
Ain't nobody there but me
That's my main man
And these niggas hating on me
Be my main fans
I feel like I'm paralyzed
I ain't never ran
And they used to pay the stuman with a damn gram
We was all down bad now they down 10
Nigga called and said they caught up in the damn jam
Now they only get to see me on the damn gram
But I don't wanna see my people in a cell
How the fuck my uncle got a million dollar bail
I just told him that we gone be good
I can tell
And he know the teacher
So he never gonna fail
We ain't never gonna fail
Nigga trust
I got some shit on my chest I've been waiting to get off
I was trynna be a man by sticking to hands
But next time I'm letting that shit off
Wifey be telling me chill
How could I relax when I really seen what I seen
Niggas be saying they feel me
But don't really feel me
Cause how could they know what I mean
You don't know what I mean
Nigga please
I was fucked up since the age of thirteen
I told the team it ain't nothing extreme
I told my therapist fuck getting clean
How many hospital beds have I seen
I had a seizure right after they jumped me in mid quarantine
They didn't believe
that's why I say fuck the clinic
Especially the one in PG
And the one in DC
Niggas done put me through hell
I really needed some help
And they told me get well
Some things you never forget
Used to give more than I get
Now I'm making the switch
They know that I never snitched
Yeah I done took a few L's
But ain't never no bitch
I handle all of my business
I'm facing my consequences
I'm way too authentic
You heard what I said and I meant it
I could've got vengeance on niggas
Instead I got richer
I'm getting bigger and bigger
Might have to burn a few bridges
I should've moved quicker
You give 'em time then they always reveal it
Fuck getting stabbed in the back
They got triggers
Can't ever lack
It's real and artifical
And I know the difference
Honestly I'm fucked up
Know they wanted me perfect
I'm getting fucked up on purpose
Feel like I fucked up my purpose
Fuck it I probably deserve it
I still put in work cause I know that it's worth it
I make a fake nigga nervous
I put my truth in these verses
Me against me is my versus