High Tide

Tryin hard not to waste time
I been learning
Tell me why to make a living I gotta go searching
For purpose and deep meanings to put in my verses
I try my hardest not to let it go but I ain't perfect
I could never give my life away I had to earn this
I can never seem to go deeper than the surface
It's hurtin
Sometimes I feel like this ain't even worth it
I miss my family but I ain't feel like I deserve em
You know that I could never stay
I tried to tell you you could come with me
All of my problems washed out in the rain
Can't never look back man I'm chasing my dreams
But
I guess I look back sometimes
Thinkin back on all the fun times
But I remember how they laughed
When I sent them niggas songs and they ain't say nothing back
When I knew that I was wrong
For the way I walked around treatin people
Insecurities stuck and the walls couldn't keep em
The kids hated me and I ain't even trust my teachers
Ain't ball til my senior year I was in the bleachers
Try to let it go but I smoke man I need it
Just to keep my mind movin slow I ain't speedin no more
But now I'm stuck on the floor
Stuck in this life man I wanna see more
Stuck with the nights tryna find my new home
Stuck walking late on the side of the road
Stuck staring down at the light by the stove
Stuck tryna please all these people I know
Stuck with the feelings that I gotta show
Fuck taking shifts I can't take it no more
Left it behind and I walked out the door
I can't replace all the time that I lost

Uh uh yeah yeah
So tired of em all
Yeah they always got assumptions
Always turning all the small things into something
My mind playin tricks on me that's why I'm always running
I don't wanna talk I ain't comin to the function
We faded into nothing
But then again I asked for this
I tried playing in the deep end knowing I can't swim
Always stuck in my head but I like the risk
And you know that I don't like to miss
Yeah always knew that I was gonna go but you missed it
Took a long road but it's all about decisions
All of my cries you ain't listen
Sittin by the stove
I ain't call my pops in a minute
Yeah I know I'm trippin
Why I feel like I can only love from a distance
Maybe cuz I ain't felt love in a minute
I don't got no fear
I seen the smoke in the mirror
I seen the smoke in the mirror
I seen it all real clear
Uh uh yeah
I seen a line in the sand
I had to take a stand
A long road ahead
It's a time to be man you know
I learned to see it coming
Please don't tell me how you miss me
When you ain't call me up when I was by myself
I think it's funny how they hit me now
Givin advice like I could use some help
I don't need it
Fake love you can keep it
This world is evil
Who are all of these people?
Oh yeah
Who are all of these people callin my phone?
Where was you at my low?
When I was on my own