East Coast

I'm not the only twenty-something
Romanticizing my depression
Nor alone on the corner smoking cigarettes to feel older
Baby queer with a fresh cut
Looking for a fresh fuck
Stumble to the bed, crying to my ex, this is what I said

Here I am
Half broke
Heartbroken
On the wrong coast
Love of my life
I had to flee
Somehow surprised he hates me
Plenty of time hating myself
Finally makes sense when it's someone else

I'm not the only dreamer here
Trying hard to disappear
Standing ovation for the internet sensation
Please say you know me
Suffocate me lonely
It's a miracle showing face
Knowing I could have stayed

Here I am
Half broke
Heartbroken
On the wrong coast
I'm okay
Begging you to stay
But not if who I am makes you say
I make you cry every day
I'd rather you forget my name

You know I couldn't stay
Wouldn't let myself fade away
Shame is crushing me
Oh so casually

Here I am
Still broke
Heartbroken
Middle finger to the coast
I'd be okay
If you showed your face
But the universe has a say
No matter where I try to stay
I never said I wanted to change