Memento Mori

Yeah look
I been ahead of the game
But I been behind on my game plan
Everyday has been the same
But when I look back I'm a changed man
I been ahead of the game
But I been behind on my game plan
Everyday has been the same
But when I look back I'm a changed man
Yeah a changed man they see
Never thought I'd get away from my youth
Never thought that I'd be chasing the time out
Instead of getting paid from booth work
Never thought that I would lie to myself
Yeah But the truth hurt now
I said the truth hurt
I see my true worth now

Yeah I lied to myself
I never thought that I was good enough
Never got accepted from the cool kids
Cause they didn't think that I was hood enough
I spent most days wasting my energy
Thinking back to what I could've done
And I see what I do right now with my life
Thinking this is probably what I should've done

Still ain't forgetting the past that I came from
But I'm keeping my mind on living lavish
I filter through the traffic
Making up for all the years of sitting static
Chilling, giving to my habits
Having no chance of them ever giving back
Just a fiend of the pack
Keen for a pack
Forfeiting dreams for keeping status
But life is a game right
And a good man is the model they shape from clay
No matter how much that he bear on his shoulders
They still expecting a man of him
So life is a game right
And a good man is the one to be getting played
So I play bad, they can stay mad
Cause a good man never finish the race

And we all got our demons
But most of us never learn how to treat em
We just continue to feed em
Cause we think it's our ticket to freedom
And get treated like heathens
Another reason we don't ever beat em
It's a fallacy thinking we hate change
We just don't know that we need it more
Than we've ever pleaded

Huh, Getting sober right
Are we ever getting really sober
Are the days of deeming these people as addicts
For medicating their past trauma finally over
I mean how can we ever understand the pain
When these drugs got a face like poker
The chains of habit are too light to feel
Till their way too heavy to break

See now that 2020 got me heartless
The emptiness after death
I lost my own dad last year to a habit
now regret is all I got left
Memento mori to the things that I can't forget
and to the things that are etched in my brain
But when u stretch ur mind to new limits fam
You ain't ever gonna see the same
Memento mori

Still I continue my story
Still I ain't giving no fucks
See me In all of my glory
Running we running a muck
And I ain't coming down, nah never
Refuse to burst under pressure
Never get pressed by opps I'm better
Fuck the gutter I'm still still above that life
Ain't bout seeing man get shanked for a tenna
Cause who wanna see a mum cry
I know first hand what it's like
When a mother gotta keep living on
And living long past the day from watching her son die
Know that's facts
We trying to make men out here
But these boys just don't understand
That a coward dies a thousand deaths
But only one death comes to a man.
Demand your respect