Losing You

As we were driving around the city
We had an argument
We were
Slowly consumed by a frustration
And change and sadness
As we became closer to home
I was thinking about ending it with her
Ending a time span of a year
Not that long
Emotions deepened with time
And attention so intense
You couldn't even notice
The dark that was lingering
She drank a bit that night and was jealous
Over the fact, I was talking with the girlfriend
Of one of my best friends
She's the jealous type
She screamed
I hate you

That moment I stopped the car
Walking over a grave
That's being overrun by cars day in day out
The highway wasn't that busy
Seeing her eyes like
She didn't know resentment
It was the mental illness that got in her way
But maybe I couldn't do better
Maybe I hated her sometimes
The love was always there
Was I doing my best
Am I a good person
Was she a good person

I wasn't myself with her
She was my home
Still it wasn't good enough
She was the one who comforted me with my anxiety
Like she was the one for me
Is love really this easy thing people talk about
Who was I
When she ended her life that day