the hurt and the healing

I thought I would be so much more by 23
And if I met a teenage me
I wonder what she'd think
Would she yell and bite and scream about
All the things we could have been?
Or would she see the hurt and the healing?

And I hate myself some days
And I don't know how I ever saw more than mediocre in me

I cannot believe it's taken so much time and energy
Just to find me
How am I s'posed to also find my dreams?
I wanna be dumb while I'm still young
Swim every Sunday and be there for those I love
But time rolls on
With or without my songs

Bright young girl
Big brown eyes
You were born to bask in the spotlight
Young girls grow
Stem and thorn
Who was I, to think I could be more?

I live in the city now with my friends and the ringtails
I've been running since a child
But just for now I'm stable
And suddenly I'm still for long enough to see my face in the water
And I don't see the bright young girl my mother fought for
I wanna see myself in kinder, softer shades
But mainly I just blame myself and spit my cursed name

And I hate myself some days
And I don't know how I ever saw more than mediocre in me

Bright young girl
Big brown eyes
You were born to bask in the spotlight
Young girls grow
Stem and thorn
Who was I, to think I could be more?

I thought I would be so much more by 23
And if I met a teenage me
I wonder what she'd think
Would she yell and bite and scream about
All the things we could have been
Or would she see the hurt and the healing?

Bright young girl
Big brown eyes
You were born to bask in the spotlight
Young girls grow
Stem and thorn
Who was I, to think I could be more?



Credits
Writer(s): Jessie Forde-johnston
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