Better Than This

I thought that I was better than this
Better than not saying anything
And letting silence do the speaking for me
It's easier, see
'Cause either way I'm a dick
I thought that letting it sit
Was somehow better but it's petty as shit
God forbid I just tell you the truth
I'm not into you
Even though you'd be fine with it

Because your first time
Should be with someone who cares
I want to be honest and fair, like
One night is all I'd be there, like
Maybe two or three but then you'll find
I'm not that available
I make music and I work full time
I don't push and I won't pull
I know it's bullshite

But I swear that I was gonna say this to your face
But a minute turns into an hour turns to a day
Which somehow sent this signal to my brain
That I could just drop it and everything would be okay

I thought that I was better than this
Better than not saying anything
And letting silence do the speaking for me
It's easier, see
'Cause either way I'm a dick
I thought that letting it sit
Was somehow better but it's petty as shit
God forbid I just tell you the truth
I'm not into you
Even though you'd be fine with it

Because my first time
Which was not really my first time
She was the one I got burned by
Wanted her so bad it hurt
I can't believe how much I've learned
I thought that it meant I was her guy
But she was just looking for her's
I did not get a second or third night
Such a blurred line

'Cause I never ended up seeing her ever again
And I would hate for that to be your experience
And after all this you'd think that I'd have some empathy
But your boy still left that text box empty

I thought that I was better than this
Better than not saying anything
And letting silence do the speaking for me
It's easier, see
'Cause either way I'm a dick
I thought that letting it sit
Was somehow better but it's petty as shit
God forbid I just tell you the truth
I'm not into you
Even though you'd be fine with it