Trauma - Interlude

(I said "Escape from it")
(I heard "You'll never run far enough")
(Visions all around me)

I wish someone would have told me
"You'll be okay, go on your way
I know this won't make sense right away
But one day, one day you'll understand what I mean"
When I couldn't sleep, barely eat
With all these visions all around me
I wish someone would have found me in the dark
Through the pride, to keep me from drowning
With these memories in my heart
Feeling guilt-ridden, everything seems so hideous
Nightmares slowly crawling in insidious

I said "Escape from it"
I heard "You'll never run far enough"
I kept walking
"Maybe one day you'll have gone far enough"
I guess it was me, I never shed tears the same
There's a monster within taking my fears away
And through the years slowly, a cloud of doubt overhead
I'm growing older, all I know to cope is how to forget
I can't remember, can't recall
Too prideful to see it all
I keep on climbing like a fiend
Fuck it, never mind the fall

There's no escape from it
Face it or lose it all
I choose to fall
I can't keep going if it's just to forget it
Believe in fate, believe in nothing
Accept it or curse it all
I'll stop walking
And let my demons crawl-
Just far enough