Dead Inside

Like, if I told you my point of view
Would you look at me different?
Like, tell me if I'm crazy

Where do I even start?
A lot of things been on my mind
That tore my head apart
Cause in the dark I see the problems
That I'm dealing with a whole lot clearer
Pains and the held remarks
Feelings that they might call me crazy for
Fading with my thoughts

Tell me how I'm 'posed to show my feelings
When nobody ever feels me
Cause they judging
My decisions and my image
And I'm pass forgiveness
Sometimes I think I'm just too solid
For these women
Soon as tables turn for them
They hit my digits

And I'm not depressed, I'm just under stress
And merely, I've been unimpressed
With me, so I just self correct
But everytime I try to do that
I just feel like even less
Cause even when I try my hardest
Still I can't achieve my best

Tryna reach my peak potential
That's why every word I say gets sentimental
Reconfigure
Times I feel like anything besides a winner
Hold the dinner
Need enough for me, my team
And all my hittas
This the type of life that make a lover
Wanna turn a killer

Wanna get colder like a pole December
Tryna be the king of the jungle
Like I been holding Simba
All these women full of games
So I just put my tokens in her
Need to have a talk with God
From head to heels I need a healer

Keep my feelings bottled up
Might just need some therapy
Some reevaluation
Cause my thoughts been way ahead
Can't even stand on mine
Cause there's no one that understands me
I just stand the test of time
That's how I'm measuring my sanity

I know I got issues, that I'm toxic
And it's obvious
No opioids or phonics
That can teach me how to stop it
I'm not perfect
But who is? just being honest
Cope without narcotics
I just grab the microphone
And speak this logic

It's a cold world, ever had a cold girl?
Tell you all these promises
That she can't keep her word on
Even when the rope cutting yo hands
Still wanna hold on
Then y'all hit the climax
Just to tell you that she's moving on

I thought I was a good guy
And couldn't do nobody wrong
Until I was reciprocating energy
That past hoes was giving me
Tryna figure out what just got into me
Them demons on my shoulder
That's why everybody's leaving me
No one helped in freeing me
Can't really give out blame
Cause it's hard reading me
I don't really speak on what's been heating me
Can never find the words to say
So I get hurt repeatedly
It's shots from every corner
So I gotta move strategically

The reason why I feel all by myself
Is only cause they killed my soul
Had no help
Now I feel dead inside
Feel dead inside, feel dead