Anxiety

My ears are ringing
I can't sleep yet
I've been dreaming
About a season
Or a reason to leave
I'm a puppet with no strings
Gimme time to see
I'll be overthinking everything
Better prepare for reckoning
Part the sea so I can see the true path
Tunnel vision with it
I can't see the ships
I'd rather suffer and walk
Do it myself, no time to talk
A part two to my suicidal thoughts

Feel like this draft is iminent for the trash bin
Always wanna say what's on my mind
But no way to find the words that rhyme
I never have the time to rest
I do my best to relieve it from my chest
But I never know how to put it in a sentence
Never goes away so how do I elaborate existence
Tell it like it is and let everyone try to comprehend it
That's all I gotta do to let it spread like the flu
And then end it

I need friends but I can't invisibly seek them
Pretend I got a lot but I barely meet them
Feed them attention and lead 'em through the trenches
A war of mind over matter
Blood splatters when my fire scatters
And I batter enemies with the badder venom
Please give me a light
I need to chill out before the horn of victory shouts
This tragedy of the battle being won
Means I've killed all the things I have been turned away from

Play the song of storms
Cause today we mourn
I don't know if I was born with this
But I pour with this torrent
Strike true with the bolt of Zeus
And I bolt like the Bolt
And kill what the voice is sayin'
I'm super with my dual faces
I got a God complex
Alongside an inner civil unrest
Angel to my right and a devil to my left
I switch on a flick of my wrist
From first to last
Alpha and Omega within my sinner grasp
I need a grand exodus
Granted before my nemesis
Anxiety, my inverse reflection