September

I heard you got married in September
Hit me right between the eyes
Every moment I still remember
Came flooding back to me that night

And I'm happy that your happy
And I know this to be true
But the eighteen year old part of me
Wished it was me with you

I'm trying to cope with the part of you I let go
The part of you that I know
Because it's not who you are now
I'm trying to know the ways I have grown up too
The person I've become doesn't have room for you

And maybe I care too much
Maybe It's the wine I've drunk
But I can't help but grieve the you I've got to leave behind

I know it didn't hurt you like it hurt me
Back in 2016
I wrote a song from every angle
To understand what your words mean

Oh and I'm happy that you've learned to love
Without any boundaries
But I can't help but think about
Every promise you broke with me

I'm trying to cope with the part of you I let go
The part of you that I know
Because it's not who you are now
I'm trying to know the ways I have grown up too
The person I've become doesn't have room for you

And maybe I care too much
Maybe It's the wine I've drunk
But I can't help but grieve the you I've got to leave

Leave behind

And you'll probably say this is all a lie
Because it wasn't like you were ever mine
But I was there on the phone with you
When you we're healing from those wounds
And What the hell was I supposed to do
When you called the shots, and the rules too
I couldn't ask you to stay
When you were already a world away
You already made up the play
You already planned you escape
You tried to save me that so called pain
But all I wanted was you
Just you

So you got married in September
I bet it was a beautiful day
Every detail to remember
Every moment tailor-made
I hope you don't think about me at all
When you see your first tattoo
I've got so much more in store
That doesn't have to do with you