Admissions

My hospital bed
I wish you were there with me
Even though I fucked up again
This bandage on my arm
This is the price I pay for not
Saying what I should have said

Wait in admissions down by the ward
They'd let me talk to you again
In remission I'd give you the choice
Of whether you wanted to take me in

So where do I begin
The hospital called you but
Your cell phone wasn't answering
They're bumping up my meds
Doubling dose has been
A lot less fun than you'd expect

Wait in admissions down by the ward
They'd let me talk to you again
In remission I'd give you the choice
Of whether you wanted to take me in
Every decision I made was my own
And I'm borderline enough as it is
With precision you hate what I am
But you loved me whatever I did

All I'm asking you to do
Is take the pieces of me
And scatter my ashes across the creek
At the foot of the hill
Where I grew up alone
With only the train tracks for company
And spread me on the lake
So I can float across the breeze
And let the water keep a part of me
I haven't got long
And I'll never get to see
What exactly I was meant to be

Wait in admissions down by the ward
They'd let me talk to you again
In remission I'd give you the choice
Of whether you wanted to take me in
Every decision I made was my own
And in the end I regret what I did
When I die alone on my own
I'll pretend you were there holding my hand