Fine

I've kept my mouth closed for many months
Sew it up with leftover thread for many months
Cut the phone cord in the middle to prevent it
Took out communicative people to prevent it again

But I thought I did the right thing and I
Still got false accusations thrown at me by you
And I thought keeping quiet would eliminate it
But now you're trying even harder to wreck my reputation

It's not that I care about defending my name
But every time that I complain you're the first one they blame
I don't wanna start a boycott I don't wanna start a fight
I want all of this to clear up I just wanna make things right

I can't stand the silence
Rather words than bloody hands
Wrapped around your neck
Taking sides and taking stands

It's not you anymore
It's the paranoia it's my mind
Can't wrap my head around the fact
That the fault is not all mine

My therapist knows you by name
She said I'm doing the right thing
But if I was I wouldn't feel this shitty
And it would all be done

I can't look at you the same
And I don't think I ever will
You make it seem like I hate you
But know I never will

How do I design your life so I'm not in it
Cuz I feel so damn problematic
Like I caused all this shit

I'm losing my control
Is this your end goal
I've checked my connection too many times
Cuz I can't seem to focus
On living my own life
Cuz when I see your social media
And you seem to be doing fine

You're doing fine
But I'm not doing fine