Another Self

So many desires, carved like black holes
Blank eyes that stare, into the rest of space
Still dreams stay untouched, endless compromise
Chasing smoke with a dim, a dim light as our guide

Living in apathy, the ultimate solution
The world's still spinning yet you're pinned down on the ground
Walking in circles, day by day by day
Stealing moments, against the endless flow of time

Kiss the lips you'll never kiss
Seek the thrills you'll never seek
Share the thoughts you've never shared
Care for those you never cared

Still I linger in the past
In triumphs, failures, stains of blood
Place something for me to find
In my future hope survives

Wake up and see

But now I'm sick of turning pages
Watching the self I envy, just a spectator
Wrong feelings, wrong place, wrong time
Keeping myself warm, with burning hopes

In the future that awaits
Blackened days and wishful nights
Struggling to remain sane
In the absence of your light

And a chill crawls down my spine
As I feel their eyes on me
A voice is whispering in my mind
Should I try to break free

Help me leave you, find the strength to break through
Hurt me, mock me, laugh at my face
Turn this desire, into another figment
Of the imagination, a faded temptation

I will always miss the moments that I've missed
Another destination, a different reality
What could have been, hopes are scattered by the wind
A different life, another self

Here I lie, defeated and torn
Among the echoes, of unfinished songs
A gust of wind, an urge to let go
Truth claimed its place, as I woke up and saw

All these years of hidden dismay
Are falling to dust as life surges through my veins
Days go by, drifting away
The river of time, runs deep and shapes my fate

And I walk away from here
Leaving no trace to your heart
Dark will cover my escape
This other self I leave to die

I will always miss, the moments that I've missed
Another destination, a different reality
What could have been, hopes are scattered by the wind
A different life, another self