Only

Ooh yeah (If only I wasn't an only)
(If only I wasn't an only)
(If only I wasn't an only)
(If only I wasn't an only)

Once upon a time, I had some
I didn't have to deal with infinite ransoms
I lost no one to cancer
Alas?
What happened?
Why'd everyone die under my watch?
I'm not asking for tears
Water don't work on dead things
Can't even see them 'neath the snow anyway
If I did, they wouldn't come back any day
Like, at all

Through broken life, there's a way down
Though I'm literally in 12 ways down
I'm ready to stay down for the count

Winter is meant for full homes
Emotional warmth cancels out the cold
It's meant for those in community
With several rapping at their chamber doors
What about the lonely?
Singing Christmas songs to yourself don't count as caroling
Valentines Day is meant for lovers only
You don't decorate trees for your eyes only
If only I wasn't an only

I couldn't care less about what God would do
I'd rather keep heaven waiting for you
Why is life so limiting?
Know for a fact that most of the dead
Ain't finished living yet
Are my days numbered as well?
My spirit is in those who already left
Did they realize when they began to leave That they took a part of me
And everybody who knew them
Holding on to your rosary beads
Make me wanna bleed
Out everything I thought since you left

Through broken life, there's a way down
Though I'm literally in 12 ways down
I'm ready to stay down, yeah

Winter is meant for full homes
Emotional warmth cancels out the cold
(That's who it's meant for)
It's meant for those in community
(That's who it's meant for)
With several rapping at their chamber doors
(Nothing like grieving)
What about the lonely?
(Oh what about it?)
Singing Christmas songs to yourself don't count as caroling
Valentines Day is meant for lovers only
(I wish that you)
You don't decorate trees for your eyes only
(I wish that you could see this)
If only I wasn't an only
(I wish that I wasn't an only)