worth it

So you think you have the right to be selfish?
Well, let me tell you, darling, that's not fair to me
After everything I gave you, all my energy
You hung me out to dry, my glass is empty

Gave you 1 chance, 2, and 3
Not giving a 4th took all of me
So I'll count my tears and strike my fears before you see

Maybe I'll look back and think that this was worth it
To be better on my own and finally free
But maybe eight months down the line
I'll still wish that you were mine
And, honestly, that thought completely kills me

I wish I could say by now that I don't miss you
But truth is it still feels like I lost a limb

Giving you 1 chance, 2, then 3
I'd probably give you a 4th if you need
But, for now, I'll just count my tears
And strike my fears before I bleed

Maybe I'll look back and think that this was worth it
To be better on my own and finally free
But maybe eight months down the line
I'll still wish that you were mine
And, honestly, that thought completely kills me

When you hold on to love that he severed apart
But somehow, you feel you're to blame

When the light that you chose, not ablaze but alone
Points out his feelings have changed

When you just want to scream, but you're rapt in a dream
You're now a dismal cliche

When the kingdom you held was so under his spell
That now, it's crumbling away

Maybe I'll look back and think that it was worth it
To leave these haunted halls you still roam free

But maybe eight months down the line
I'll still wish that you were mine
And, honestly, that thought completely kills me

When the face that you know gave you so much to hold
But now, everything's changed

When the paints that you used to compose skies of blue
Draw clouds, so hazy and grey

When you want to let go, but you already know
That the doubt is hard to persuade

When the one you adored struck a match to your floor
And now, you've burst into flames

But maybe it will all be worth it someday