Grip

I been trying to keep a grip
But I don't know when my hands gon' give
How you gon' tell me you can stand all this
And I know you prefer a man like him
I think this calls for me to pack and dip
You know them demons been feasting
On all the energy you bring to me, I need treatment
PTSD, I see you on the street
Retreat and be like, it's a dream
I'm being weak, I got reasons
Surround me with your toxic love
Not now nor ever not enough
Can't mix our blood
Don't even think a kid would be a fix for us
So we did what we must, you can trust
That I'll stay, way away
You can lust all you want
But I'm breaking the chains
Of the cuffs, you're stunned
Maybe if we don't make love you'll lose the love
Why are we always confusing each other
Deluding each other into choosing each other
We amusingly tether our moods to the truth which we used to recover our ego
Please don't tell me that you mean well
See hoe, all you do is ring bells
Peek through your eyes and I can see hell
I'm tryna pull you through it

I've been holding on so long
I'm sorry if I lose my grip
(Lose my grip)

I've been holding on so long
I'm sorry if I lose my grip
(Lose my grip)

Last night I took a walk and thought about the consequences of attachment
I know the devil's plotting some catastrophe
We just praying and he trying to block the magic that we need
Her and I are different axes and we only crossing paths if we both have been at our nothing
Just to make matters worse, but it's all practice right?
Prepare us for worse to come, but what's the worse to come if you'd just end up being fucking hung
That's right I'd be hung over love
Weak ass motherfucker
Bleak ass motherfucker
Just cause your skull is fucking balls deep
And you need a dog treat
Or your attention span is that of chopped meat
That does not mean that's how everyone all be
Some of us be way too attentive aren't we?
Thinking all week about some fucking dumb shit
It's crazy how obsessive be your brain
I still be thinking bout some shit I did in 7th grade

I've been holding on so long
I'm sorry if I lose my grip, lose my grip

I've been holding on so long
I'm sorry if I lose my grip, lose my grip