End of The Lineage

I touched on this in Die Alone
That was back with death was in my bed
Now I'm standing strong
No malicious thoughts inside my head, yeah
But they clawing out
Gotta take the time to learn what I am stressing bout
I be pretending that I don't know
I could label every single blessing that I asked for
Back forth
How'd I learn to juggle all this misery
Guess it made me stronger
Cause the pressure wasn't killing me
I been drowning in my ways
High school
I remember clowning in them days
I choose
Every part of me that's getting saved
Grown man now but I'm finally making waves
Started taking this serious
Reasons still too mysterious
Everything that I failed
Just trickled into experience
I been building a pyramid brick my brick
I take it slow then I know it'll stick

It's the end of another year alone
(Alone alone)
Am I gonna have to do it in my own
(My own my own)
God I know this is the path that I'm on
(I'm on I'm on)
But if I wanna quit would it put me in the wrong
(In the wrong in the wrong)
It's the end of another year alone
(Alone alone)
Am I gonna have to do it in my own
(My own my own)
God I know this is the path that I'm on
(I'm on I'm on)
But if I wanna quit would it put me in the wrong
(In the wrong in the wrong)

You know that I'm the last son
How you let this fall on me
Since 23
I been thinking bout my family tree
And now I'm torn
Do I wanna see my child being born
Or wanna see my career finally start to take form
I'm running out of time
I can't be undecided
If I pick a path then the other's uninvited cause I'm broke
I can't afford a baby now
What a joke, they expect me to be ready how
Feel like I'm giving up
Tried online dating but I didn't make the cut
Cause I couldn't find balance of the mind and the flesh
Mind wants love but the flesh unimpressed cause I'm focused
Nothing gone derail this train
10 years
So much to lose and more to gain
Now I really gotta weigh all the pros and the cons
Couldn't live if the music was gone

It's the end of another year alone
(Alone alone)
Am I gonna have to do it in my own
(My own my own)
God I know this is the path that I'm on
(I'm on I'm on)
But if I wanna quit would it put me in the wrong
(In the wrong in the wrong)
It's the end of another year alone
(Alone alone)
Am I gonna have to do it in my own
(My own my own)
God I know this is the path that I'm on
(I'm on I'm on)
But if I wanna quit would it put me in the wrong
(In the wrong in the wrong)