Battle of Survival

Mr. T the beats machine
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Sometimes when I wanna sleep
I feel like I'm not gonna wake again
But I got a long way to go
And I got a lot to claim
Life is full of many things
That you can't escape
Every single day of my life
I feel like I was encaged

You know this life
You have to do some things alone
There'll be a time you have to sit alone
You think alone
You make your suggestion alone
You act alone
You face your fears alone
You fight your war alone
You lose
You cry alone

But if you win
You can't jubilate alone
I hope happiness can mask the pains
I've gone through
'Cause I can't continue living my life
Like a sadist that's not cool

I'm just like truck that has no driver
But how am I gonna move forward
When I have a rider
Sometimes I ask myself
Why would mama give birth to me
Into this wicked world

I live with depression
And I don't know why every single thing
About life is just like a war
Most of the times
When I can't handle the pain
I put the blames on mama
'Cause back then I don't really understand
What life is

But when I realized no human on earth
Can live without facing battle
That's when I knew what life is
I also realized family isn't just like
A piece of junk you can throw away
Or pick up on the road just like that

I know I blamed you a lot mum
And I am sorry for that and you too dad
I know every success has its own circumstances
I faced many obstacles yet I still stand fit
How I wish I could be rewarded
For all the things I've lost and cried for
But it's not possible
'Cause not every lost can be compensated for

I just wanna be rich
To bring my family out of the shit
We've been into
Even before I was born
And I wanna be the bread winner of my family
That's why I am trying to break the generational curse

We can't feel the same pain the same way
'Cause we're not facing the same problem
And we got a lot of people around us
Who gat nobody to cloth them
I got many people around me
But I don't ride to them for help
'Cause to promise is very easy
To fulfill it
Is the main problem

The street is keeping up the religion
Everybody talk about me
The way I work sometimes people ask
What's up with me
Child of a poor man I've seen too much suffering
I put my life on the line like when heaven is calling me

Many people don't know why I stick to myself
I'm the only one that understand the feelings
They don't know the reason
Whenever I am thinking about my life
I gotta close my eyes just to avoid the drop of the tears
Unforgettable statement before you can win a war
You gotta conquer the fears first

Sometimes I look at myself and ask myself
If I was born for anybody or I was born for myself
If I'm to live for anybody or I'm to live for myself
This gives me a lot of pains
'Cause I don't really know much about myself
And those who are suppose to tell me the story have gone

Now I have to look for my identity by myself
We were born to live, and we live to die
The distance between life and death is just like a battle line
So always celebrate the little things you get and live a happy life

I wanna live in a nice bright place
I wanna make money like I'm not gonna die again
And I wanna live in peace like I am not gonna fight again
This life you have to know how to fight for your wants
'Cause nobody cares for your lost

Even if nobody sign me
I'm gonna sign myself
And I'll become my own label
I can't listen to everybody
So I don't care if they call me a rebel

I've had different kind of nightmares about
Billion dollar dreams
I hope my dreams come through
'Cause my body my soul
And my blood keep running

That's why I am always hopeful
When I sleep sometimes
I feel like I am at the edge of the heaven
Even at times when I look up
I feel like I am seeing the symbol of hope

Jesus got enemies
I got the same shit
We can't be liked by everyone
That's the fucking true shit
I've been living in the dream now
It's time to come to reality

During my pains, I still smile
So I don't want any fuckin body to think it's easy
'Cause what I survived might kill you
That's just a reality
I'll rather take the risk than to lose the chance
That's why I am gonna put my energy
Into the things I have future with

I wish I could get all the things I prayed for
I wish I could laugh over all the things I cried for
I wish God could answer all the things I asked for
I'm always having tough time
There's nothing like funday

I live with different six people in a single room
You don't know what I have passed through
Right from my childhood I have been hustling
You can only see me working
But you can never know what am digging

I live a ghetto life everyday
But no matter what I have to make it anyway
I wanna tell you niggas not to ever compare
Those who hustle for their needs on their own
With those who get what they want from their parents
I'm sure y'all know is has a lot of difference

You already gone if your daily problem is
Bigger than your daily bread
And you already failed it
You try to depend on your family or your friends
That's why I'm always independent

We got different kinds of beliefs
And we got different definition for our lives
So I believe in myself
I'm always seeing myself as a winner
And I pray to God to forgive all my sins, cause I know I'm a sinner

I'm loyal to myself
I'm loyal to my hustle
I'm loyal to my feelings
You wanna know why I keep my secrets to myself

It's cos I trust no bitches
And that's just the reason
I know I have a lot of foes who talk behind my back
And I don't give a fuck what you think about me
'Cause I'm after my future

We were born empty handed
And when we gonna die
We die empty handed
I look up to God
I'm praying for better future
I gat a lot of siblings to care for

I'm just a poor guy that's trying to make a living
And I pray my sins never disturb my blessings
I don't know why poor people have to live a miserable live
I don't know why poor people frequently get murdered
I don't know why poor people frequently encounter accident
I don't know why poor people frequently commit suicide
Why (meehn)

No matter the circumstances
Always give thanks to God
Let's know how to be satisfied with
What we got
'Cause nothing is too small in this life

The things you think is not important
Becomes the most important
Once you don't have it again
Every time and everyday
Always be thankful to Allah
Most especially when I wake up in the morning
I can't skip saying
Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulillah