I Need Some Time To Breathe.

I wish it was easier done than said
Running to my dreams, now they running from me instead
Got away from the thoughts, now they coming back for my head
Sending me to a time I wish I'd forget
But I
Never imagined this is something fourteen years would do to me
Ain't tryna have somebody write my eulogy
You came without a notice, so how long are you gon take to leave?
I'm sick and tired of you taking everything away from me

Sunset came earlier than expected
It ain't like this when I was eleven, now the devil pays a visit when it turns eleven
Filling up them pages while he making my head spin
Thought these lines could connect the circuit
But it ain't working, now I'm living in darkness
End of the trial, and I still ain't got a purpose

I remember those times when I wrote all those tracks cuz I wanted to reach all those big dreams
And how I would say all that effort would pay off and I'd see myself on the big screen
Picked the mic up to spread a little message
That was harder than it seemed
I wanted to impact the world, but the sole person who got impacted was me

I need some time to breathe
You've been making everything hard for me
Living in my brain, you getting so heavy
I'm a human unlike you, I need some privacy
I need some time to breathe
You've been making everything hard for me
Living in my brain, you getting too heavy
I just wish that I could get you out of me

I'm walking to school with both my ears plugged
When I talk to a person, I let my heartbeat rush
In the classroom, fake a smile, tryna cover up
Why does every place in the world make me feel stuck?
Every step I take ain't done without a doubt
Wish I knew they true feelings, ain't nobody think out loud
View me differently cuz of the way I act when I'm around
It's a coping mechanism just to block out all these sounds
In my mind
Have you ever thought of that place beyond the skies?
You don't seem to leave me, maybe that's a sign
Look into a mirror, and I see a silhouette with all the little blemishes that you can ever find
Somebody get these problems off my chest
Let me, let me take one more breath
Living ain't feel the same anymore
So maybe I'll feel alive when I'm dead

I need some time to breathe
You've been making everything hard for me
Living in my brain, you getting so heavy
I'm a human unlike you, I need some privacy
I need some time to breathe
You've been making everything hard for me
Living in my brain, you getting too heavy
I just wish that I could get you out of me

I just need some time to breathe
Rib cage piercing through my lungs, it's throbbing
Food on the table got a couple ants crawling
Got her asking why you locked in like it's a coffin
But ain't nobody can escape once you let these thoughts in
I do not expect to be free
But at least give me some time to breathe