Vox Clamantis in Deserto

Heavy is the heart that is worn upon the sleeve
Eating strange fruit now I'm getting blood all on the leaves
Guess I'm bound to this town they got me hanging from a tree
Broadcast it live so the whole world can see
How they think they did a good job of capturing the beast but
Death is on my side so he's gonna set me free
It's not my time to be slaughtered with the sheep so
I'll roam with the wolves and try to find a place to sleep
Life is a tar pit that I can't escape from
Strife when it's star lit will shed a light on my glum
I'm trying to be better but I'm oh so numb
Tryna stop drinking but I still love rum
Time to feed the sharks so I guess I'll be chum
The smartest thing that you can do is always play dumb
Don't let them in your head don't even listen to the hums
Listen to my voice try and focus on the drums
I wear my shades at night so I can look in the abyss
The blades are alright when they're entering my wrist
Fade away into light now my spirit has a rift
Prayed for the sight that'll give my soul a lift
I don't think it's wrong that I just wanna kiss and only after
Will I put my hands on your hips
Scared that you see me as nothing more than a cyst
It's hard to be happy let alone exist

Spit my woes into a microphone to try and keep a level head
The weight is all off scales all titling like they're filled with lead
I gotta get some weight off so I'll find some pain to shed
Go ahead and let go
You're hanging by a thread
Do you think that you're ready for the challenge up ahead?
Of course you don't know cause you thought that you'd be dead
Now you're stuck on a road that you haven't yet tread
Now your brain's filled with mold since you're always feeling dread
Always tryna find a different way to say the same things
Depression is your master he's just pulling all your strings
You think that you're the saddest so you call yourself the King
Compare yourself to Lucifer when God clipped his wings
Sitting by the water hope to hear the sirens sing
I don't mind betrayal if it's love that they bring
Or maybe it's lust oh no wonder that it stings
I should've known better than to fall in love in spring
But every season rains so I'm comfortable with haze
Spent my whole life hiding pain within my gaze
No longer feel the burns that are caused by the flame
Since my nerves are all gone when they went up with the blaze
My eyes are gone too now I'm stuck inside this maze
I should've been more careful tryna feel the sun's rays
I didn't really care I told them go ahead and raze
Because of that I only have myself to blame
I wanted to be strong so I could hear a little praise
Everything is gone now I'm living in a daze
So I put my pen to pad not to waste away the days
Not to waste away the days
Not to waste away the days