Pretend

Lately I've been trying find a reason why
Still so young but feel like I've been wasting time
So I had to figure out where I've been wrong
Pointless conversations
Get lost up in translations
Gone through shit that would make a grown man cry
But I'm way too numb and I just don't know why
So I had to hold it back Instead of feeling all alone
Been through realizations
Thru trials and tribulations

Man fuck all this shit I don't need it
Man fuck all this shit I don't need it
The pain of knowing your friends don't fuck with you truly's a horrible feeling
I opened my eyes in the morning just hoping that it was a mare I was dreaming
This shit got me feeling like fleeing wanting to stay but I don't have a reason
I feel like I'm losing myself
I blame it on my mental health
I'm crushing this bud put it all in the zoobie it's putting the feelings in stealth
But I do not need no help
My feelings all up on a shelf
Everyday I wake up and look in the mirror I don't even see myself
I'm losing control like I'm Russ
At this point I do not give a fuck
And I'm building these walls all around me
They're keep me safe like I'm playing on Rust
I been coping got nothing to say
What I'm feelings not what I display
But I swear that I almost broke down
When she told me it doesn't have to end this way
And I didn't even wanna do this
But she always saying I'm confusing
But I had a choice between you and myself
And I guess you found out what I'm choosing
They say Wiked you're moving too ruthless
Know it all but I act like I'm clueless
And I know that I'm saying too much its okay
She don't even listen to my music

Lately I've been trying to find a reason why
Still so young but feel like I've been wasting time
So I had to figure out where I've been wrong
Pointless conversations
Get lost up in translations
Gone through shit that woulda make a grown man cry
But I'm way too numb and I just don't know why
So I had to hold it back Instead of feeling all alone
Been through realizations
Thru trials and tribulations

You know I've been rolling
Steady I been coping
I been go through so much that I'm no longer hoping
At this point I'm toking until the point I'm choking
And all because I hate this shit and feel my time was stolen
Thinking bout the shit that I should not have said
I told her that we could not even be friends
Said that you would be with me until the end
You're a fucking liar that was all pretend



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Writer(s): Ruben Duarte
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