Pillow Prison

I don't got guns I let them tears fly
I have been tryna make it out a long time
I'm trapped outside with no line
Cloudy nights where the moon don't shine
Every time I find myself alone
I skip my fate just like a stone
Blueberry eyes baked in a scone
Can't find sunlight to let it go

Even though it rains, it's still cold
No cure for the pain, it just grows
I know I need to change but it's in my bones
Happiness in waves it comes and goes
My heart's more frozen than some ice cream
And it's still real soft but it ain't sweet
We know times can be good but they don't freeze
It left and took my breath away now I can't breathe
Been in the dark for too long that's why I can't see
I've been feeling too gone but I still can't leave
How can I move strong? when I can't fall asleep
I know it feels too wrong so I just let it be

If it's not fully broken I won't fix it
Been down so many times, from when I tried to hit them kickflips
Demons talking to me jimmy knows how I've been living
Every time I close my eyes I get real tense and timid
Every time I fall asleep my nightmares get real vivid
Prescribe me Adderal but I still never paid attention
Cut it with a knife so it can move right thru the tension
If I died tonight don't think my soul will reach ascension
We don't know if we died or if we fell asleep
Wasting all our time like we had repeats
Soft boy all day tucked in my sheets
Feels like nowhere I can find my peace

Even though it rains, it's still cold
No cure for the pain, it just grows
I know I need to change but it's in my bones
Happiness in waves it comes and goes
My heart's more frozen than some ice cream
And it's still real soft but it ain't sweet
We know times can be good but they don't freeze
It left and took my breath away now I can't breathe
Been in the dark for too long that's why I can't see
I've been feeling too gone but I still can't leave
How can I move strong? when I can't fall asleep
I know it feels too wrong so I just let it be