Heaven

I think I see heaven
I think that my time is due
'Cause all this got me stressin'
It's getting harder to pull through
I think I see heaven
And I don't wanna look back now
'Cause ain't no point in stressin'
If my dreams don't ever work out

Aye
This is the mind of a young philosopher
Somewhat a conquerer
Dripped in Mufasa's fur
Hiding emotions just trying to not suffer
So much disconnect, turns out I got tougher
I didn't want it to be this way
So many friends I don't know where they be today
It's so much dark on my mind
I can't see the day
I lost my spark but it's fine, It'll beam someday
I was 16 when I wanted to give up on life
I was facing some demons I thought I could fight
But I ain't had no weapon, they pulled up with knives
So they cut me to pieces and told me "goodbye"
I cried from how much I was stressing
Thinking if I make it, it's surely a blessing
But for some moments I was second guessing
Thinking it was my time to see heaven 'cause

I think I see heaven
Yeah
I think that my time is due
'Cause all this got me stressin'
It's getting harder to pull through
I think I see heaven
And I don't wanna look back now
'Cause ain't no point in stressin'
If my dreams don't ever work out

You don't see the true me on the day to day
You only see the cool me that my outside portrays
It's layers to this shit and I could talk for days
About the scary thoughts that I'm tryna run away, from
But I'm numb
To most of my emotions
I got used to drowning them away by taking all these potions
At least I thought they were drowning but truly I had no notion
That it wasn't so easy, turns out they really be floating
I'm a kid with big dreams and equally big fears
I was scared of making this if I'm being sincere
But the thought of having other jobs
Don't sit right with me
And if these songs ever make it far
Than I was right it seems
I think I see heaven
But I don't, wanna see it yet
I'm drowning in melodies and regret
So many entities in my head
Controlling my energy and my sweat
While I'm tryna make a masterpiece before I'm dead
Hope the angels answer me when I'm there
Is there eternal peace when you're dead?
I feel like I could be one of the greatest
I swear that my talent is super
But I can't tell the difference
Between enjoying my youth or ruining my future
I was so lost
I did everything wrong
And not once did I stop to listen
That most of the mistakes I made
Were caused by what I would put in my system

I think I see heaven
I think that my time is due
'Cause all this got me stressin'
It's getting harder to pull through
I think I see heaven
And I don't wanna look back now
'Cause ain't no point in stressin'
If my dreams don't ever work out