Coping Mechanism

(Emphasis)

Coping with my thoughts,
They're really quite heavy today
The lesser evil that I thought I caught,
Ode to the ghost it's slipping away
But now I never know, grab a tiger by the toe
But I wanna a let it go
Something caught, between my thoughts,
Something I know and something I don't
Tried the powder once I don't like shit up my nose,
Where do I go, nobody's knows
Slidin' down alone that cobblestone road

Yes I'm a rapper with a mind for the community
But that don't mean I expect any immunity
Just wanna be on the right side 'fore the fuckin' mutiny
All part of the game I know it'll involve scrutiny

The love you feel is there
There's something in the air
Feeling unprepared
(I know, I'll find it)

Whenever I say I'm fine
That's the biggest fucking lie

But I just can't let you see
Whats going on in my mind

Takin' my time when writing line to line
Over the course of life, I fail every time I try
Figure out why fuck am I alive,
What have I got offer,
Do I merely just exist?
I struggled with that my whole life
Except for when it comes to this,
Learnt from best
Watching Shady pull them tricks since the age of six

Was rapping since I was nine,
Never recorded a thing till now
It just wasn't my time
It probably still isn't and it may never be
But something takes over when I hear an infectious beat
You know what I mean,
The rhythm and the snare,
All you can do is tap your feet
It's the feeling that's always meant
The most to me

(I know, I'll find it)

Fuck being too docile
The worlds just too hostile
Drinkin', smokin' the pain away
Lungs burnt by the crossfire
Almost died many times
Everytime I fucking survived
Same role reprised
In this life lived twice
Locked in a safe the seal of fate
Somebody call the locksmithe
I'm feeling so fucking boxed in
Fuck takin' a vow of silence
Keepin' in time with the clock tick
If you could see what I see,
You could see what I dream,
Lighting the fire to live through the seems
Plant another tree just to breathe in air that's clean

There's something in the air
Feeling unprepared

(I know, I'll find it)

My favourite joke is life
Because it's us it's based around
Can't be original in a world with nothing new to be found
It's comes down to inhibition,
Mines behind the camera in this life that's a motion picture
I wish shit could be clearer
I've come so far but I still don't like
Whats looking at me in the mirror

Some may say it's just chip on his shoulder
That's not true but I have grown colder

(I know, I'll find it)
The love you feel is there
There's something in the air
Feeling unprepared
(I know, I'll find it)

Believe me when I say
That I'm never tryna stare
I'm often in my own head,
You're not really there
Something transparent
it's apparent I'm unaware
Not tryna be rude,
But don't think too deep,
I really don't care
How pretty you are,
How tall you are,
What colour you are,
Or where you are from
Identity twisted born in a place
That I feel that I don't belong
Courtesy and respect
Goes along way
But if the system remains broken
We'll never be able to ever get along