...And If I Did, You Deserved It. ("In case I make it," Outtake) - Live at Knitting Factory, Spokane, WA

Uh, here's one that isn't on a record

I want a new pair of shades, get paid to wear shoes
Do what I say, don't say what I do
When we're alone now
High up but a lowdown
You know I'm not the type of guy to turn my back on a knife
And that's why I'm still looking in the mirror
Oh, I wanna be safe from the fame, but be loved from afar
Get paid to write my name
Could you airbrush my scars
Get my good side
Don't get on my bad side
You know I'm not the type of guy to turn my back on a knife
It's just my luck these motherfuckers talking smack on a guy
But i'm deserving every word they could begin to apply
But at least they know now

That I really don't care what you think, or what you say
Either that, or I do way too much
Oh well, whatever, either way
My heart's empty
And I'm trying to fill it up
But it's not big enough for the both of us
No, it's not big enough for the both of us

I want no less than the best
But the best I can do is be the worst thing first
And leave the rest up to you
I'm realistic
Everyone's a critic
If I keep beating myself up I'll keep on winning the fight
And get my ass kicked
I'm poisonous, not toxic
I'll admit when I'm wrong
But only to be right
And if it fits in the song
I'll rhyme that with "contrived"
Don't meet your idols
Hey, fuck you, I'm your idol
But the only label that'll sign is in the DSM-5
'Cause my flaws are sorta on the pathological side
Don't call me eccentric, call me mentally sick
'Cause I ain't sold enough tickets yet to be rich
And that's the only difference

And I really don't care what you think, or what you say
Either that, or I do way too much
Oh well, whatever, either way
My heart's empty
And I'm trying to fill it up
But it's not big enough for the both of us
No, it's not big enough for the both of us

And If looks could kill, I'd be staring in the mirror
Yeah, if looks could kill, I'd be staring in the mirror
Yeah, if looks could kill, I'd be staring in the mirror
Even more than I already would
'Cause man, I'm lookin' good!

And I really don't care what you think, or what you say
I'm a cancer, I'm malignant, yeah you ought to stay away
My heart's fucking empty
And I'm trying to fill it up
But it's not big enough for the both of us
And I really don't care what you think, or what you say
I'm a cancer, I'm malignant, yeah you ought to stay away
My heart's fucking empty
And I'm trying to fill it up
But it's not big enough for the both of us
No, it's not big enough for the both of us
No, it's not big enough for the both of us