company

I have so much of me to give
Laying on my floor like I did
When I was seventeen
I crawl into the sheets

Watching white lines on the road
Try to keep from crying
I hate the in-between
Of real life and reverie

I miss you for you
But I'm not sure that's how you feel too
I wanted you, and you wanted anyone
Anyone at all

And I happened to be there
In my head, you were everywhere
I liked the company
Laid out in front of me

When midnight passed that's when I knew
You couldn't love me like I loved you
I knew I'd lose again
And lose my only friend

I think of you in intervals
Your name still comes up at the dinner table
I wanted everything, and you wanted to pick and choose
Pick and choose the parts that worked for you

And I swore I would fix you
And you promised you'd try
But I didn't get to
Because we ran out of time
And I swore we would make it
But you were unsure
You never planned to break it
You said it just wouldn't work

I loved you, I know you heard me say
And you loved me too, but in a different way
You held me near, then held me out at arm's length
Said you don't love me, at least not that way
Don't say you do if you're not gonna stay