BACKSTORY AVE.

People remember the first love like the back of they hand
That's me aswell yet she reeked havoc and hell on me
Had to tell the mandem
Living like Z & C, as a negro this life is suite
Thought she'd cheat, gossip flying around like a Phantom
You're no leader, you ride tandem with the fandom
Playing that Ginuwine anthem thinking that he's handsome
But you really just want the money
You think that shit cute but you really bummy
Workaholic mama, man she don't care
You're like "Just pass me the money"
I worked to get here
Why do I gotta be up just to date broke bitches
Which is corrupted to the riches that came from the ditches
Dealing with these broke bitches
Fuck I'm aggravated
Your vision so saturated
I get a glimpse of her and all of sudden
It's like I've been contaminated
Like I'm permanently agitated
Some thoughts just fascinated
Maybe she knew the real her yet didn't wanna show it to me
No wonder her life was so gloomy, scared to show the real you
Because someone, Because you were scared someone will leave you
If I'm wrong, sue me
You drew me, you looked into me, then you connected with me
Like you fucking knew me, well now I'm a new me
I saw beauty within the lies, manipulation and lies
Reciprocating your ex's thoughts, now you're fucking up my mind
I was doing good I was happy then you fucked me
I guess I should've never let you get close too me

I may be frustrated but I accept it now
I'm speaking in fragments but atleast I'm getting out
I'm speaking out and I'm glad that you're happy now
It is what it is, I stopped comprehending and predicting
How you would act
Even after we split, I thought about why was I so into Chase
I wanted a better wall than he built yet he was in your head
Mind like briefcase
Tied you up like a shoelace, and yet
You were still the one that got goose chased
I came from a place where sharks grow with
Demons in intoxicated oceans
Grew from my hypothecated emotions, messing with mind potions
I guess I never moved with those erosions
Glad I didn't because of those emotions
I wouldn't be here today buying Trojans and
High doses of lost closures

Shoot all the bluejays you want
If you can hit em
Remember not to kill a mocking bird, don't try to diss em
Who let bygones be bygones, they're not apart of our system
Let's go get em, flip em like a patty, then go on and forbid em
Spent years studying icons, ripping open some nylons
The blunt sparked up like pylons
Like where the fuck has the mile gone
Eyes was just a mental test for me, these clouds are heavy
In barbershops just eavesdropping
New OG's niggas learning from they pops
I may live in peace but that just turned into sadness with tear drops
Maybe it's self sabotage that makes winter so quiet
Obsession and love are actions but one hurts when they leave
So let me take you on Backstory Ave
The place where I grieve