Winky

Let the minutes pass, cop cars on my street
Can't sleep but can't get up to turn down the heat

What am I supposed to feel
When they're out there
And I'm not that way
Even though I tried to say it
Where does that leave us?

I don't understand what happens now
The same fucking ringing in my ears
Won't leave me alone

You can't take this away from me
It's all I've got to keep me going

What am I supposed to feel
When they're out there
And I'm not that way
Even though I tried to say it
Where does that leave us?

I don't understand what happens now
The same fucking ringing in my ears
Won't leave me alone
The frustration
It won't let me alone

Slip me yellow, push my head down on the pillow
Close my eyes and let me sleep
Oh let me rest and let me weep
For what's gone before and what's leaving
And that I'm not the one to whom you're speaking

I heard you but you may never know
It's jealousy too
Raging on against no one
In particular except myself

I can get all the toys I want
But I can't buy the grit and the haunt
I can watch it, I can hear and get close
But I can't have it or touch what I need most

I know you may never understand
And I won't get to see your empty hand
But I don't want to sell myself out like that
I'm not that way
I'm not that way
Even though I tried and I tried and I tried and I tried
And I tried and I tried and I tried

You don't know what I will do
I've got something to hold onto
Going left and going right
Oh it's OK, I've got all night