anguish (lone)

Fuck it, roll another one
Fuck it, I should probably go and get me one
Some friends, I've been tryna go and get me some
My ends ain't trimmed as they need to be
My family never turn they back, I know they be needing me
I feel like I'm dead weight and dead space
That train coming, come and hit me in my damn face
(Cause it's like shit on the wrong track know what I'm saying)

Fuck it, roll another one
Fuck it, I should probably go and get me one
Some friends, I've been tryna go and get me some
Young nigga, we chasing after bread crumbs
Praying that we could gather some to make a hunnid
Shit fuck it, I don't ever see the train coming
Days numbered, but still utter the same lustful
Affirmations and shit that was passed down
And fuck the underground, I'm coming for that crown
So I could make these niggas wear young meez hand-me-downs
These niggas be hating and shit, because they in a drought
The water falls down, but certainly not around enough
For them acting tough niggas to see the aqueduct and carry on
This shit is alarming, but I know better days
Because I never was starving
I'm keeping the margins tight, I'm keeping my mind right
And niggas give it all up for the love and the limelight
Until they lose sight of they self, ain't keeping tabs on these niggas
They keeping tabs on the wealth, I see the envious faces
They think that I can't tell

Fuck it, roll another one
Fuck it, I should probably go and get me one
Some friends, I should probably go and get me some
My n's ain't answering the phone, answering the wrong questions
Searching for the wrong answers
I'm down and lonely, in my room
And I'm knowing that I'm focused, getting closer I know it
But the outside move fast, and I'm in the room moving slow as shit
Tired of holding shit in, tired of being closed-off
And standoffish, cause them people that dipped
Rest In Peace, R.I.P
Still giving praise to the powers that be

Fuck it, roll another one
Fuck it, I should probably go and get me one
Some friends, I've been tryna go and get me some
The end of phase, I could feel it nearing
Before I do that, let me talking about more real shit
It was Fourth of July, to my surprise
I woke up I ain't wanna do shit on that day
Momma told me that she already had some plans for that day, Mom, Sis, and Naim
They all went to the beach, regular day
It would seem, I took a nap and I eat
I woke up in a scream, and the energy seemed off
Mom at the door and her energy seems off
Sis energy seem gone, but it's not like I ain't seen that before
Brother slept on the couch and crashed soon as he got home
I get a knock on my door, momma telling me she wanna tell me something
Me, I ain't suspecting nothing cause I was a lil bit tired and flustered
She told me auntie died and I just swore she was bluffing
I found out it was serious and tears got to running
I was feeling something, not the feeling of sadness
But the feeling of regret, shit
And I don't never feel that again
Get that off my chest, Aftermath