Love is Pain (wanted)

Pour out some Johnny Walker black label that was his drink
Memories flowing like liquor
& when it hit ya you feel it cuz dawg I miss ya
Attended your sister's wedding last night
She looked so beautiful so many years after your funeral
But truth be told I been a hypocrite my dude let's be real
How I be driving home intoxicated
When a drunk driver's who got you and V killed
I promised you I'd never do that again like back then
Still I listen to the angel of sin telling me
I'm just here to keep you warm, I know it get cold ya'll
Lying to myself, like I got it under control ya'll
Put up a fuckin' front, I'm acting without a co-star
People that got everything, all they want is some more dawg
Never been great at expressing what I'm feelin'
I just grab the pen and pad and started scribblin'
It's just different when it's written
Yeah they say love is just pain
My bro since you left it ain't been the same

Like every night I'd be calling her over
Kissing on my neck while massaging my shoulders
She been a general but still kept the heart of a soldier
Sometimes I catch myself wishing we could start it all over
Cuz I seen the look in her eyes slowly start to get colder
Realize she getting played
Knowing she deserving more
Immature
Giving to somebody else what's really yours
Was really wrong I'd redo life quick
Man, you was really special, why I treated you like shit, ma
My excuse is I was young
I was stupid I was dumb
Was assuming there's like a million of you when there was one
Ya I know that now
What a chapter of my life I gotta close that now
And hop on that road back down
Back to reality
Oops there goes gravity
Cuz my heart dropped the day I heard she was married
See that's my moment of clarity
They say that love is just pain
Mama since u left it ain't been the same